Be Mindfully Grateful

This is one thing I need to learn to do and stop complaining!

JUST A REMINDER!!!!

 

XOXOXOX

May

Of weddings and whatnots!

Since November till today, I’ve been to 4 weddings, so that means its an average of one wedding per month. Have already invites to 2 more in June and November. I know I am already at that age where my peers are all getting hitched one by one. One question that is constantly bombarded to me is “ So, when is it your turn?” or  “So, got boyfriend or not?” by relatives and friends of parents (sometimes I am also guilty of asking that questions to friends).  Although I don’t really care and most of the time my answer would be “Aiyah, chill la!” or “too many to choose from.” or “ Wah, you think so easy ah, tomorrow I go shopping la”, it really makes me wonder about it. Maybe you think I am worried or desperate, since I am writing about this now, but in actual fact I don’t think about it like OMG, I am getting older and need to get married now. I know everyone says now is the best time to get married as you wouldn’t want to wait too long to start having a family and all that biological clock blabbers you get. But am I ready for such things?

I still question it all the time whenever someone tells me that they are getting married. I am very happy for them and get all excited for their wedding, but when I put myself in their shoe and get a little shiver down my spine. It’s not like I am a person who doesn’t not believe in marriage,  I DO! but I guess for me it ONE BIG HUGE ASS step in life that I rather not make a mistake. I know I think too much when it comes to relationships and close friends of mine think I’m to analytical with it. People say that’s a flaw as it makes me very very guarded with my feelings. They tell me that I think too much, which have come to realize that I do. One of my many flaws I guess.

However this flaw of mine is something that makes me wonder. What has happened to me to make me the way I am? I feel that I am a very emotional person, I cry at weddings, I cry when I watch Oprah, I cry at the tiniest things – cry baby is my nickname. I cry and get all chocked up at romantic movies and romantic gestures, yet when it comes to my own relationships I become this over analytical person. I haven’t experienced horrible heartbreaks and yet so guarded like everyone is out there to get me! Yes, I am strange!

Anyway, I hope that this flaw of mine doesn’t make me into this bitter person who despises relationships and end up a horrible spinster that everyone loves to hate.

Damn emo right this post? Ish……Cannot like this…so here is something for you to laugh about!

Most hilarious book I have ever bought! RIP Michael!

Loves <3

New Year Resolutions

Don't think I thought about resolutions last year, which led me to think why my 2011 wasn't as productive as it would have been. So, I'll make this entry as a reminder of my 2012 to-do-list.

2012 to-do-list:

1. To be healthier - I lost a little weight during the mid of 2011, but kinda gained it all back again with the lack of exercise during the last few months of the year. Hence, I have told myself that I need to get back in shape. Exercise more and eat healthier. Need to seriously put in effort in having more nutritious food home and not to eat out so often and at ungodly hours! This, I know takes loads of discipline! So friends who truly love me, please remind me of healthy food and healthy lifestyle! OKAY?

2. To start saving seriously - I let myself enjoy 2010, spending however I want and saving VERY little. So this year, I will need to start saving SERIOUSLY. Need to seriously control my spending! Not only do I need to start saving, I need to start learning how to invest, play shares and stuff like that so that my money can grow and not just sit in the bank not working for me! Any tips that can help me achieve my goal?

3. To find something to do other than work and play that I can be proud off - Maybe something that can help the society. I need to have a purpose to make me feel like I'm doing something good. I guess that is one thing I like about my job now. I work with a educational company which indirectly shapes the children of our future. I know I can do more, not just that. OR maybe sign up for a class, may it be art, dance, or music, definitely have an on going project and hobby to fill my time.

This should be enough fo 2012, Cheers to everyone with their resolutions and to do lists! May this year be AWESOME!

Loves <3

JX's 5th Birthday

My Darling nephew turns 5 today! He is my handsome Arab prince! So good looking that modeling agencies should be begging him to join their company!!

Happy Birthday Jia Xiang! Have a good one and see you in a couple of days! Love you!!

Hugs and kisses!

Time....

...is something that we take for granted, and with a blink of an eye its flies by without us even noticing....

I know I have been neglecting this blog for a while and have been attempting a come back and yet, have been failing. Its been almost half a year since I last blog and I feel that the time just disappeared in between. Tragic isn't it? I'll try to remember what happened since then but knowing me, I might have memory gaps!

 June was when the girls and I went for our first holiday together. Phuket was good and being with the girls was just great. The weather wasn't the best but who cares when you're there with your best friends?

Us girls on our last night out

Group picture taken by this really cute guy walking his dog

 July came and went as was busy with school holiday programs at work. Bought my very first smartphone and is still in love with it eventhough at the beginning I had the feeling I would not like it being a touchscreen. Love how convenient it is for me to be connected to the world! Although I might say that it may be a distraction sometimes being too connected to the world! :P

HTC incredible S

Celebrated Era's Birthday too! 26 years old is something we dreaded when we hit 25 but as I said earlier, time flies and soon we'll be 30! OMG! I guess I really need to sort my life out soon enough, being all adult is not as fun as we used to think when we were back in school eh?

Era's 26th, which ended with a splash!

 As August came, my yearly trip (wish it was more often) back to Labuan to celebrate my Dad's Birthday. My siblings and I have made it a point to go back to Labuan every year ( so far 2 years in a row) to celebrate. Dad turned 60 and we had a small dinner with the closest of friends. Love you dad to bits!

Family picture during Dad's 60th dinner

September was a quiet month with small meet ups and catch ups.  

 

Raya Open House at Roze's

Tropicana City Mall's Toilet...priceless

Loved October because my mom was here! It is always fun to have my mom around as I get to eat home cooked food rather than eating out all the time! Its not that I don't cook but by the time I come back from work its always so late for me to even think about eating let alone cook! Mom came and then Dad came soon after. However, while they were away on their holiday in New Zealand, the house was quiet again! I really can't wait for my turn to retire and go for holidays like my parents! But I guess there's no reward without working hard like my parents. I need to work for the next 30 years before that? I guess this is when you really want the time to fly by. The thought that I may have to work for the next 30 years just scared me! ARGH!!!! *think about getting a rich husband, then its settled* :PCelebrated Roze's 26th Birthday too, which reminded me of mine as mine birthday was next! eeks! Had fun at the mexican restaurant with the bunch of close friends and a pinata!

Roze's Birthday at Las Caratas

I started my new job in November! Now working at a company that provides science syllabus for kindergartens. Working as a Programme Executive, I am in charge of coming up with programs and activities for our customers as well as making sure that they are provided with the best. I feel it is a good move as I needed a change of environment. I wanted to work in a place where I didn't know anyone and to be more independent. Although there are things about my last job ( going to work at 11.30 on some days, and fun parties and activities), I feel I needed to progress in the working world. Everyone around me was asking me to move on, to find something more related to what I studied. I know this job is not exactly what I studied, but being a science student has helped me with my research in coming up with science experiments and what nots. 

Another plus side to this new job is that it is 5 minutes away from my house, which means I don't have to go through the crazy jam and toll that I have been going through for the past 1 year! I am home by 6pm and has given me so much more time for myself. Have started cooking a bit, going to the gym a bit. I love it as I have the whole evening to myself or with friends! I used to come home at about 8.30 and by the time I shower and chill its already 12pm. Now, like today, I am done showered, ate, watched a movie, now blogging and its only 9.20pm! Crazy right? Time spent on myself is definitely better than being stuck in the jam for hours!

Went white water rafting for the 2nd time with the girls and Alireza. Bought it for Era's overdue birthday present! It was definitely a fun adventure! We should do something like this all the time. I think I could be an outdoor adventure junkie. Just need the right group of friends who can appreciate it! Girls, you guys up for it?

White water rafting at Gopeng, Perak

Had 2 weddings to attend too! Nuri's and my cousins! In Malaysia, famous months for weddings are November and December! So to weddings I went, got pampered, looked pretty :) for weddings are place where you see people you haven't seen in ages and you definitely wanna look good! Shallow as it may sound, but I'm sure everyone thinks of that too!

November is also when I turned 26! Had dinner with my closest friends - Carmen, Era, Kingsley and Joo Yin at Daily Grind, Bangsar village. Being with them is also  How do I feel about being 26? I feel I'm scared as I feel I need to have life goals, like buying a house and being all grown-up and yet I feel I need to enjoy before I become to old for it. Everyone around me is also getting married, so that has also crossed my mind, however am not ready for all that! So how? I guess I'm just going to chill and enjoy the moment. No need to be scared or pressured okay? just CHILL!

The next day, I celebrated with another bunch of close friends at a Persian restaurant, Alibaba on Jalan Ampang. Love persian food, don't know if its a Baha'i thing, but never have I met a Baha'i who doesn't like Persian food! I love Kashk Bademjan,! Ooooh, just thinking of it is making me salivate, so better stop. 

L-R: Dana, Parissa, Lindsey, Me, Kellym Riyaz, Ali Rahimi, Andrew, Alireza in Alibaba

December is now here and soon we will be celebrating Christmas and New year! Its still the beginning of the month but have done quite a few things, like going to watch STOMP courtesy of Carmen and Era for my birthday present! It was an amazing show and loved it to bits. Such a great present and really enjoyed every minute of it! Thank you babes! Love you guys for knowing what I would enjoy!

STOMP with autographs, souvenir for my birthday present!

 The next day, went on another outdoor adventure! Skytrex has been something I have been wanting to try ever since I heard about it and I got the chance! It was definitely fun and wont mind doing it again and again and again! 

Walk the line!

 

Being a monkey

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I guess this concludes today's post. Its a long one but hopefully this wont be a the last of a long absence! Actually miss jotting down happenings as sometimes my forgetful mind is just so horrible! I look forward to the new year as I want it to an awesome one! Cheers to an amazing 2012!!! 

Love always!

At last!

Us 4 have been planning this holiday since forever but it never seem to materialize! One is always missing or the timing is never right!

So finally it is happening! I’ve known these girls since I was 13 and this may sound pathetic but this will be our first holiday ALL together! Where are we going? We are going to PHUKET! We may not be glamarous as the 4 from sex and the city but who cares as long as my girls are with me!

Being our first holiday together, I pray that it will be an awesome one without hiccups and just pure fun! Love these girls to bits!!!!

Toodles and have a good weekend, I know I’ll be by the beach soaking up the sun! <3!

This post is dedicated to MY Family

I missed a post on Mother Day ( maybe many others too) so here goes:

I love you Mom, with all my heart. I really don’t know what would I do or where I would be without you! You are the most understanding mom, my bestfriend. You’re the one that I confide my problems and my fears to and you never fail to give me advices that are practical and do-able. I love you for that and for everything else you have done for me. I miss you so much!!! I’m not very good with words so I’ll stop here but you know my love for you is endless.

Next is for my Dad, Father’s Day and since that I am going to be away for the weekend, here goes my wishes for my Dad:

Daddy Dearest,  I know sometimes I get very impatient but it doesn’t mean I don’t love you!!! How you have worked so hard for all of us to study comfortably,  live happily,  I am grateful for having a father like you who saves so much for us. But Dad, now that you have worked so hard and retired, please enjoy the fruits of your labour! Go on as many holidays as you can. Spend all those hard earned money to your hearts desire! Its now for you to enjoy with mom what you guys have worked so hard for us! Don’t stress over little things, Daddy….ENJOY! Happy Father’s Day!

My sister’s birthday is this Saturday!! So che, this one is for you:

My only sister who I love! You’ve been there for me although we are 8 years apart, I find that we grew so much closer over the years.  You are someone I look up to and grateful to have such a generous and loving sister (Iphone can? hahaha).  Everyone should have a sister like you especially when you have given birth to 2 darlings that I love and adore! Happy Birthday Che! Have a good one! I know you’ll be busy packing and moving but take time to have fun! You come back here we go clubbing okay? Something I rarely do with you! Love you

My brother’s birthday is in November but since I’m doing this, here goes one for him too":

Ko, you are always a phone call away although we hardly talk! You are there when I am in trouble and since being in KL working and staying on my own, I’m never afraid because I know you’ll be there when I need you. You’re are such a cool brother to have. All my friends thinks its so awesome to have such a cool and famous brother. We used to wrestle (influenced by WWF) and fight so much when we were younger that my mom always say “ go to the kitchen, take knifes and battle it out once and for all”.  We don’t talk much but you know I love you right??

I think that’s all for now. Writing all this out reminds me of how lucky I am to have my family. Some people may think that their family is better, but who cares, they are not MINE! I LOVE YOU GUYS !!!!

Love ,

The baby of the family!

2010 at a glance!

January – Officially left the UK! Bittersweet definitely to leave a country that I grew to love. Wouldn’t mind going back there if given the chance!  Had the experience of studying and working there so had quite a gist of living abroad. Had a ball with my friends there. Memories to cherish!!!! Transit in Dubai for 2 weeks! Had fun with my sister’s family. Got to even celebrate Jia Wen’s Birthday with her after so many years! Even babysat my niece while my sister came back earlier to attend her friends wedding!

February – Came back to Malaysia for good! Celebrated CNY with the family having spent 2 years away was definitely awesome! Coming from a big family, it seems that CNY is never ending, from one house to another, from the 1st day to the next and the next day until we come to a close on the 15th day! Crazy don’t you think the amount of celebrating we are doing plus all the food that is consumed!

March – Spend 1 whole month back in Labuan, the small little island that I grew up! Didn’t really do much except trying to apply for jobs and catching up with good ol’ friends who i grew up with. Chilled out to the point of horizontal is what i can say about Labuan. When I was younger and still in school, always wanted to get out of Labuan, thinking it was so boring and just uncool to be in Labuan. But know I feel attached to that place. Looking forward to going back and just do nothing. Now I’m proud to say that I am from Labuan, however uncool you may think it is!

April -  Came back to KL, spent time in Alor Setar (where my parents are from) for Cheng Beng (first time ever). I think there are photos of that trip in an earlier post before I went MIA. Starting working part-time for my cousin while I continue to get disappointed with all the rejections from companies that didn’t want me!

May to July – Was still working for my cousin at Caterpillar. Usual meet ups with friends. These couple of months were kinda routine for me. Work, out with friends, chilled at home at my aunts place. I guess that was about it for that few months.

  

August – Went back to Labuan to celebrate my father’s 59th birthday! My sister and brother was there too and it was fun to have everyone around! Being at home with the siblings was nice. Being the youngest in the family and also having age gaps that are quite big, I was mostly at home on my own without my brothers and sister. My sister and I have an age difference of 8 and with my brother its 5, which means that when I was 9 years old, my sister left the nest and when i was 13 my brother too left the house. So since I was 13 years old, I was the only one at home with my parents till I was 19? crazy right? But it also meant that I spent loads of time with my parents and I think that it made very attached to them! In August was also the month that I permanently started working for my cousin, since there were no offers that came my way I decided to work with her full-time. So I guess a new beginning started!

September -  Went on a road trip with a few good friends to Melaka! Ate and shop was what we did! Fun is what was on the menu. Jocker street was fun as things were really cheap!!!! Don’t mind going there again!!!!!

October – Went to watch a few shows at the KLPAC with my aunt and cousin during the Short and Sweet Festival. Saw friends act, direct and dance during the festival and it was definitely a breath of fresh air!

November – Moved in to the new place in Puchong. Still empty but excited to get it furnished. kitchen is coming in on Thursday so that part I’m excited! Also had a party there, my 25th Birthday! OMG i cannot believe that i am now 25 years old. Last time when i was in school, I always thought 25 was a very cool age to be, but now I feel weird. Sometimes I still cannot believe that I’m 25, keep thinking that this is all a dream and that 25 is an age where you have to be all grown up and act like a grown up which i feel i hardly do. I still feel like I’m 18 and still seek approval sometimes on things that don’t even matter! Argh….While i am writing this it is kicking in that 25 is the age that most people get married or even have kids! I still don’t think I am mature/capable enough to make such commitments. How can people my age raise another human being?!! Salute to those who are doing it but to me it is still something that i cannot imagine myself doing YET! Since moving to the apartment, I started to go to the gym provided and run on the treadmill. Seeing results already but I know I need to keep it a routine so that I don’t lose momentum

December – Busy busy month in terms of work. Was running around like a headless chicken for a few weeks! It was good as the weeks went by soooo quickly! It was hectic but at the same time, coming back from work after a busy day was very fulfilling. Christmas time came and have been celebrating it with friends and family. Fun times definitely and its a good way to end a year! Looking forward to the New Years although I know I need to set goals to achieve to make the year more fruitful. Resolutions is what everyone calls it. Have you got yours? Will have to sit down and think!

Hope all of you had an AMAZING 2010…….and wishing all of you AWESOME 2011!! As Era taught me, I need to tell the Universe what I want, so here goes “I WANT AN AWESOME 2011!!*era says need to be specific* Work wise - I want a pay rise, I want the company to expand! Health wise - I want to be able to run 5km on the treadmill none stop at a constant speed of 7 (now only 3 km). Overall – to be content with what I have and just to be happy!!! I guess there goes my resolutions for the year of 2011? Simple enough to accomplish?? Hopefully! *think positive*

God Bless!!!